Wanting it Both Ways

As posted on my blog yesterday I have new job! Really pleased about it as, in this climate and given the status of my current company, I needed to get something else.

Its also assisted my boss and existing company because it takes me off the payroll at an expedite time for them.

The new role is in Executive Education which I have been looking at/considering for some time. Helping others (in true ASD fashion) and the subject of business in general do really interest me.

Its also an area which, as you get older, tends to make experienced people more attractive, rather than marketing - where I am now - which is largely a young man's game. It is, therefore, a good opportunity and I beat six other candidates (many more applied) to get it!

However, there is another side to me that makes me slightly nervous. I am disappointed that I couldn't fully see through things with my last company (though officially I am retained as a consultant). I will also miss the industry that I worked with as it is a real growth one. I will be leaving the world of entertainment which I hugely enjoy and is an area that I like telling people I am associated with.

I want ideally to retain links with both. However, it is very, very important that I go into this new role with a positive frame of mind and don't "look back".

I have the option after 6-12 months to review things and return to the old industry if I so choose of course. However, I have got to give my new role my total attention.

My ASD has always meant that I tend to remain uncertain. It is one of the damaging aspects of it that I often never feel settled which disrupts my need for routine. If I keep wondering whether I should be elsewhere, or doing something different, it is counterproductive.

Has anyone else experienced this feeling or have any thoughts about dealing with this type of situation?