My Evaluation
About a week ago I had my yearly evaluation. For the most part things went well. The Associate Registrar likes my work, says I'm a good asset to the office, I'm always willing to help people, people like me and I'm accurate and get the job done. There's always a question though that he asks me every year. Do I want to move up or do anything different in the office? I end up not really answering the question because I don't really want to tell him the truth during a evaluation because it might not be appropriate. The truth is I do not want to move up in that office or place because I don't want to be there anymore. As they say sometimes one has to leave the mud pile rather than grow in it. Plus a lot of the other tasks there I do not like. I also guess another reason would be my weakness with change and etc. I really don't have the desire to move up because I don't like being in charge of things, I cannot handle it that well and do not want to deal with the stress, especially in that place. The discussion ended with him saying I need to think about it and something needs to be done to award you. In my opinion even though I've been there a while now and am one of the "older" employees I still feel very new to all of this. The years went too fast in there. Too many changes and inconsistencies. I sometimes get annoyed and feel odd when I'm expected to know more or do more since I've been there for a number of years. I just want to be left alone.
Incremental Change
I think that I have posted something similar to what is coming on my forums before.
I fully understand why you don't want to change. It is, of course, a character trait of all people with Asperger that they like routine and find change difficult.
However, I have found that refusing to counternance change or accept additional responsibility can have detrimental consequences.
In situations like this I seek what I call "incremental change": I state that I do seek change but couch it in terms that make it seem constructive from the company's perspective: i.e. I want to progress and make a further contribution, but don't want to take on too much before I am ready and capable of fulfilling the additional responsibilities effectively!
From a personal perspective, I think that it is also dangerous. You can stagnate and, by not progressing, you make yourself less-marketable and run the riks of getting into a rut.
Be positive and consider all options!