It’s been a while since I blogged for various reasons – being away through much of the summer being a key one.
So, it is time I blogged again and I am pleased to be back. I am also determined to blog more regularly from now on – hopefully on a weekly basis.
What’s been happening to me? Well its back to the old issue of concentration; boy do I find this hard. I was in a meeting this week and found myself drifting away mentally on numerous occasions. Needless to say I missed a lot of useful information as a result and so I have been reflecting on why I do this.
I think a key reason is egocentric thoughts. My AS means that, if the subject matter is not to my interest, my mind drifts onto other subject matter. Thinking about it more closely, my mind drifts back onto past events that are important to me. Invariably these are contentious or negative issues.
I have been asking myself why it is so important to re-visit these issues when there is no benefit. Consequently, I am determined to force myself to stop and refocus on the “here and now”.
The next key thing I have been doing over the last couple of weeks is forcing myself to do things when there is no immediate need. I have written about “Urgency Addiction” previously: my inability to commence something unless it is immediately required.
There are so many benefits of starting immediately: getting things done, not allowing stress to build etc, but it is still something I find hard to do.
Against that, I am also trying to get the balance right by not doing something if I don’t want to. I was speaking to an acquaintance recently who is a judge. He said he had the same issue (note that I don’t use the word “problem” in this context) in this area: he can’t start writing up a case summary until the last moment and, if he tries to do so, he cannot find the required edge.
So, plenty to ponder. I am in the process of finishing a couple of other articles for posting on AspergerManagement as well.